@jabel Psychotherapist Francis Weller wrote a book called The Wild Edge of Sorrow which is about dealing with grief, and he talks about what he calls the five gates of grief: 1) everything we love, we will lose; 2) the places that have not known love (he is talking about what gives us shame); 3) the sorrows of the world; 4) what we expected and did not receive; 5) ancestral grief. I would venture to say that your trip brought healing to a few of these.